Posts from the ‘Spirituality’ Category

Subconscious and the Soul

I have just been doing some contemplation on my Shamanic meditations. Often when I am in that state, I can doubt what I am seeing or experiencing and be snapped out. I know that even if my mind creates it, it is still important and part of the vision, but I think I am gaining a deeper understanding of that. When we journey and allow our subconscious to take over, that is our soul at its purest form. We are beyond just flesh and blood. We are all spiritual beings, and the subconscious untouched IS that spirit. What you experience in these dreams, visions and meditations are deep messages that are coming to you for a reason, from Source. Your spirit connects with that pure source when you allow it too. Do not stress if you are creating something in your mind, when you are allowing your subconscious to control, it is all genuine and important to look into.


Drink from the waters

I went in tonight with the intent of travelling to the upper world to meet my Gods/Goddesses. It took some time and work to break through the clouds, and when I did, it did not last long. A being of light greeted me warmly, but let me know I had more lessons to learn first in the lower world. I descended down, ending up in a river in the forest. I floated relaxed, once again encountering the bear I had met in my past recently, who helped me control my breathing while I floated downstream, allowing the water to flow with me. In between this time it was fuzzy as I was deep into the subconscious, but the next thing I remember is my snake joining me, telling me to please drink from the river. I did, feeling that I needed to replenish my soul. If I am to continue onward, I need to keep replenishing myself. I also felt compelled to do simple meditations to relax my mind more. Healing shall be happening now within my soul.

Second Day

I am going to try and write in here everyday that I can.  I was very excited about this new blog. Doing the exercises to find out what my blog should be about helped me to reconnect with what I love about life. Well I felt inspired, ended up playing some Little Big Planet 2 custom levels but I just felt so disconnected from it. My spirit feels restrained and I am trying to get to the source of it. Not just that, I have not had the inspiration for work despite so many great things happening and working with some new technologies. I think for now I will try and get some more of my project done so I can see some progress. I am going to worry about the themes later and for now, just get the layout of my GUI setup with Expression Blend. I have a lot on my plate, and I better start eating it.

The first step on my journey

I am beginning my first step on this journey today. This WordPress blog shall be my personal home to add all my thoughts of the day, whatever that may be interesting me. This shall be me releasing what is inside onto the whole world. It shall also be a token of time, a place I can look back and see what I was experiencing at different points in my life.

To start with, I have suffered a great weight fluctuation this year. I have taken action this week to rectify it, losing over 7 pounds in just 5 days. The diet I was on had me eating every 2 hours, 5 times a day.

Meal 1: Egg whites with vegetables

Meal 2: 2 oz Chicken with vegetables

Meal 3: 2 oz Chicken with vegetables and 1/2 cup of brown rice

Meal 4: 2oz Talibut fish with vegetables

Meal 5: 2 oz  Chicken with vegetables

However, this all came at a cost. I was on a diet that was too strict and left me with too little energy to operate normally. While running errands during lunch, the pain became unbearable. I caved and had a delicious Chipotle Burrito, something fresh to bring me back into a normal lifestyle. I am now going to be in the habit of just eating healthier and eating less.  That burrito has satisfied me for a long time, and should be enough for the rest of my evening. I will continue to lose weight, but at my own pace.

There are other aspects of my life now that I am going to reconnect with. As I have stated in my about page, I have been getting into Shamanism since last summer, and have seen so many great results manifest from it in my life. I need to begin to meditate & journey more, and discover more of the worlds that are beyond our own. I also have a great passion for gadgets, video games and computer programming. I have recently been discovering Windows Presentation Foundation (WPF) and Microsoft Expression Blend to create beautiful User Interfaces (UIs) inside of Windows programs.

Recently I have also been creating and playing inside of Little Big Planet 2. The first Little Big Planet was really my introduction to the PlayStation 3, my favorite of all the current consoles. While I own all the big 3 consoles, my PS3 has been getting the most attention since it’s come into my life.  I pre-ordered the Collector’s Edition LBP2 back in July when it was first announced. I am so glad to experience this game now, they have made it simpler to create levels, yet you can make it all so much more complicated. I look forward to exploring it more in the coming days.

Now, I realize I have posted a lot, and my future blog posts will probably be more specific, but this is a fresh beginning to give you all a sense of my essence.

Peace be with you.