Reawakening the Spirit

My journeys today took me back into the Lower World. It has been almost a month since I have last journeyed, so it took some time for my spirit to delve into the Otherworlds. I layed on the floor, on top of a fur-like rug. Pillows behind my head, candles lit ahead of me, Nag Champa incense burning nearby, and my computer playing my favorite Shamanic drumming track. I closed my eyes and tried to imagine myself descending into my usual cave. The entrance to the cave I usually use is one I have visited in Bermuda. Surrounded by red flowers on the surface, you start to descend into the darkness. The ground is stone and damp from the cave. Tonight, it took a bit of time to get used to returning to this place. I entered tonight with the intention on finding a way to keep focus, particularly with my job. Too often my mind wanders or I can get stuck and easily discouraged. Tonight, my snake guide was once again willing to oblige. He began by speaking directly into my mind, telling me to relax. Next, he told me to feel my breath. Breath deeply, and slowly. I had my hand on my chest, feeling it rise and fall as I breathed deep. “Isn’t it wonderful to be alive? You are alive Kanowa!”(he actually called me by my real first name here, the first time he has ever addressed me by name). I then began to appreciate the very state of being alive. Life is amazing, and here I am, being able to live in this present time! This whole time, while I am experiencing all these wonderful revelations, I am still maintaing myself in the Lower World. From time to time, a thought would break me out since my mind is so active, but I just let it pass and put myself back into the other world.

Now, the next step up from this lesson was the big one for the night. Once I appreciated being alive, I was told to learn to love myself. To feel my body, my existence, my spirit and all that makes me unique. I started to gently beat my crystals onto my chest in tune with the drums. I was able to physically feel my own existence, and begin to love who I was. I have a unique body. Perhaps I am not in my perfect shape, but I AM ME! And I love me! This is my existence, and why should I waste time and energy hating who I am! Love who you are now, and you will then have the potential to do whatever you so wish in life! Nothing can hold you back! This was the key my snake companion was trying to lead me to. I came in with the intention of learning what I needed to do to focus better in my life, and the key to this was simply just loving yourself… And now, I am beginning to love all I am. My uniqueness, physically, mentally, spiritually.. I am a creation of life, and here for a certain purpose. It is time to love this current existence, so I can reach my full potential.

I am not used to having self-love, and this had made others in my life suffer. I have not been the easiest person to get along when I was too busy hating myself. I am now going to work on training myself to love who I am. My spirit has been deeply injured by self injury, and now it is the time to heal. After this lesson was taught to me in my journey, my snake guide told me to just lay down and relax. I had much to take in, and I was spiritually ill, I needed to rest and recover. Instead of returning to the surface earlier, I stayed in the cave, laying down and resting. Smaller snaked slithered on me warmly, sometimes gently squeezing my arm, letting me know that I am loved an how special my existence is. When the drums called me back, I felt as if a new chapter of my life had begun. My snake companion beckoned for me to return here at once daily, and I am now going to. I feel results in my life are now on the way.

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